The Sun!

the guys clowning around with friend Drew


The sun came out for a couple of days. it was amazing...we had all forgotten.

The paradoxes

My boy, he's on the cusp - not in the astrological sense (he's a clear Taurus on that front)- but between little boy and big boy. He still loves Disney shows, but wants badly to watch Star Wars and Ben 10. He's sweet and cuddly while alternatively flexing his muscles and wrestling like a crazy man. He loves to be around people, then needs his quiet time to recharge. He plays sweetly with his sissy then bops her on the head for no reason. He cries when he talks about getting too big, then counts the days until his next birthday. He'll be 5 in 6 days.

The paradoxes of life are never as clear again as when you are this young. And never as unforgiving, either. But the truth is there are no absolutes. I learn this more each moment, day, year. I think with confusion at my own convictions and contradicting choices- that public school is an amazing privilege of this country, while I send my children to private school; that I recycle like a madwoman while driving an SUV. Even my life is a paradox of NOT making choices-- should I work or should I be with my kids? (as long as I don't have to decide, I'll keep doing both).

But the truth, which we teach to our kids but not to ourselves, is that the beauty of life is in the contradictions. It allows us to try it on for size, grow into another size, or change the color that compliments us best. Instead of fighting against them, we should embrace those choices which challenge us. If I want Kade to do that, shouldnt I set that example?